"Behave as though the self does not exist." - Buddha

"You are not special. If you think you are, and would defend your specialness against the truth of what you really are, how can you know the truth?" - A Course in Miracles

In my 1976 death experience, Jon Mundy disappeared. This world, all of it also disappeared. I no longer existed as a separate individual in the universe. Not only was the body gone so was the personality.

And yet there was seeing; otherwise, I could not talk about the experience. I took a quick brief look at Jon Mundy and then let the story go. I really had no any choice. That story ended a long time ago in a land far far away.

What was it then that was having this experience? There was still conscious awareness. In fact there was more awareness than ever – much more. Sometimes when people describe the death experience, they talk about meeting their deceased loved ones or talking to someone on the "other side." Those experiences may very well happen. It was not like that for me. There was no embodied being for me to see or be. There was no "personality" or "individual" to talk to, and yet there was tremendous conscious awareness. This awareness was in me and outside of me and all around me. I was it. It was me. It is difficult to talk about what was having this experience – and
yet there was experiencing.

Specialness, the story, the drama, keeps us from seeing. It keeps us from being awake by perpetuating "the dreaming of the world." In the extreme, there are two ways of being special. Some people have "big" egos. We are special because we are important, we make money, we look good, we're youthful, and we have "good" sex lives, and so forth. There is nothing "wrong" in any of these experiences unless "we think" they make us special.

On the other extreme, we may see ourselves as special because of our sorrowful "victim" condition. "Woe is me. Look at what the world has done to me." However, if we "really get" Lesson 31 from A Course in Miracles, "I am not a victim of the world I see," we progress to understanding the mystic's perspective. We are "responsible," totally and absolutely, responsible for "everything" that seems to come our way. Once we accept responsibility, we cannot project. We cannot blame someone else or the circumstances in which we find ourselves.

No one is special, different or better than anyone else. We are all at our own unique level of development. No one is better or worse than we are. The more "nothing" we are, the better. Thinking that we are "something" can get us into trouble. Yet, many people think that truth is different for everyone and believe that it's possible to create hierarchies of illusions.

To be continued: Right-mindedness and Wrong-mindedness